In loving memory...

What is the best the way to go about a loss? How should I feel, act, respond, not only for my sake, but for my family's sake, and for her memory?

Death has always been something that was there, just resting on the surface of my consciousness. It was real, it was constant and an ever-present part of life, but until today it was never something that I had to deal with directly. Now, as it has stepped in and taken a seat right next to me, I find myself unsure about to react to it. I know that with time it will become easier to accept, but for now do let it get cozy and settle in or do I continue to go about life as if it isn't there?

I feel sad, a bit confused, and somewhat regretful about moments and memories that I let slip away to easily. But I choose not to live in regret, instead I choose to live in peace with the memory of the grandmother I loved, and the only grandmother I knew.

May she rest in peace...